I didn't respond to your question....do I see anybody now? Yes. There's never been a time in 44 years I've been with a therapist of some kind or other. Cha-ching! Money, money, and more money wasted. It got me nowhere, except to rehash my past. I didn't know about PTSD until 20 plus years ago when I was diagnosed, but not one single "doctor" addressed it - I was also diagnosed with bi-polar and that's what everyone after that rolled with. Easier I believe.I don't know what I'm doing here really - I only mean, I don't know how to chat, or postings, I'm not sure if I'm supposed to reply or start a new thing here.
Thank you. I need more help than I am finding. I'm totally broken and I'm burning a lot of bridges around town. I keep flipping out on people, then I realize it sometime later, like what did I do that for? I've been looking for 3 years since I got married, and moved out here. I thought this was a pretty cool place, until I moved here. I am so discouraged with the medical quacks who I put so much trust in. I have taken a billion pills in my life. I know my life is shortened because there is no way this steady stream of medications, along with all the stress, anxiety, and panic has taken a toll. Our bodies are not designed to take so much stress. My thoughts are allover the place, my mind is racing with panicky thoughts, and I'm obsessed about a couple things right now. I'm losing it. I'd pray but it doesn't seem to help and if there is a god....I'd ask a lot of "why" questions.