Sometimes I feel like I wish I was dead. Like I don’t care anymore. Like it would be easier to not have to deal with anything. I feel lost and numb. I’ve had a productive day, I cleaned my room, I went to the gym, I rested when I felt I needed rest, and yet I feel nothing as I lay down to go to bed.
My boyfriend and I talked about moving in together at the end of January. When I think about it I feel anxious, like my head is going to explode. I want to move in with him, I spend most nights at his house and it would make my life much easier, but the thought is so stressful it makes me want to avoid it.
I just don’t understand why I can’t be happy, be normal, respond normal to stressful situations. I don’t want to deal with any of this anymore.
My boyfriend and I talked about moving in together at the end of January. When I think about it I feel anxious, like my head is going to explode. I want to move in with him, I spend most nights at his house and it would make my life much easier, but the thought is so stressful it makes me want to avoid it.
I just don’t understand why I can’t be happy, be normal, respond normal to stressful situations. I don’t want to deal with any of this anymore.