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So, there were two nightmares after all. The one where people I knew and loved lost eyes in the most twisted disgusting ways my brain could think up, while I couldn't warn them. And after todays session the "monster/chasing" nightmare. The monster was a nurse but not totaly human. It is very hard to describe in a way. I had no visual input during the first trauma, no faces, nothing so the monster was etherial, ghost like, changing always changing. That's where it was scary. Nice little happy dream turns nightmare while you watch, frozen.
Somewhere somehow I ended it. I remember waking several times for nightmares for the upteenth night in a row and basically loosing my mind for a bit. I would be pretty certain I wasn't rational for a short time. Screaming and crying it wasn't real and to stop, just please stop.
Could you do that? Expose yourself to that nightmare enough to end it? Could you convince yourself that deeply about them not being real you could repress it?
And why would it come out now? We have done both traumas that I know of, this is attached to the first and despite all the stuff that excites my T (definitely engaged today) I'm trying to figure out why it took this long to pop into conscious memory?
Somewhere somehow I ended it. I remember waking several times for nightmares for the upteenth night in a row and basically loosing my mind for a bit. I would be pretty certain I wasn't rational for a short time. Screaming and crying it wasn't real and to stop, just please stop.
Could you do that? Expose yourself to that nightmare enough to end it? Could you convince yourself that deeply about them not being real you could repress it?
And why would it come out now? We have done both traumas that I know of, this is attached to the first and despite all the stuff that excites my T (definitely engaged today) I'm trying to figure out why it took this long to pop into conscious memory?