That is a lot of loss and grief to process.
Ending therapy can be seen as kind of a "loss". I can see how all this might be entangled and hard to sort out. I hope that, down the road, it's something you and your T can work on and that it will be a benefit. Meanwhile, take good care of yourself!.I think it's all bringing up lots of feelings of loss and grief and that it's all getting tangled up somehow. Not sure how to untangle it all. Don't think I can right now.