I feel like I sound so desperate but don't mean to sound this way. I guess you can say I tried to use the cult to heal myself from anything wrong I aquired from growing up in a weird family but eventually discovered the cult was just as dysfunctional but it didn't seem like it was dysfunctional to me because there were some nice people in the cult who helped me with my family situation of being abused and dysfunctional and they seemed more normal to me than my own family did. Plus they believed in a better version of earth than what we live on today. But that religion was a manipulative cult and sometimes I feel like I still want some of the promises they gave us when n the cult. What is wrong with my brain?! Anyone else relate? I thought this particular cult was the answer to all mankind's problems including global warming, child prostitution, poverty, starvation, etc What do I do now about being a proactive human being in regards to these real problems?! Is something wrong with the way I think now?