I’m having kidney issues. Today saw the urologist, and had a physical exam. I knew it was coming and hoped I’d be ok. I didn’t take any anxiety meds because I seriously hate the after effects. It’s no toss up....as bad as I can get after these exams, it still doesn’t come near the withdrawal effects of benzodiazepines. I’ve been doing everything I can think of to get grounded. I did a few things around town to stay active. I’m at the library now trying to engage my brain in various ways. I contacted a few friends but they are busy. Soon I’m going to get some food if only I can engage my brain enough to make a decision on what I want to eat! I thought of going home and going to bed but I don’t want to sleep just yet. How do you take care of yourself after such an exam? (Urological, gyn, etc) I guess I am looking for responses from CSA/sexual abuse/assault survivors who struggle with these types of medical appointments. Thanks!