Sideways
Moderator
I have a history of CSA which involved brainwashing and cult-like, okay, cult elements. I have DID, and there’s conflict among my parts about things I was brainwashed to believe about myself. There is also conflict over my abuser - some of my parts continue to adore him, and I have been diagnosed with Stockholm Syndrome.
I engage in BDSM relationships as a masochist. For some of my parts, this feels like a necessary important part of who I am, and a relatively safe way to express myself sexually. For other parts, they consider my masochism to be self-harm, and trauma-re-enactment.
How do I assess whether these sexual behaviours are okay, or whether they are counter-therapeutic and/or dysfunctional trauma re-enactment?
I engage in BDSM relationships as a masochist. For some of my parts, this feels like a necessary important part of who I am, and a relatively safe way to express myself sexually. For other parts, they consider my masochism to be self-harm, and trauma-re-enactment.
How do I assess whether these sexual behaviours are okay, or whether they are counter-therapeutic and/or dysfunctional trauma re-enactment?