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I feel stupid and embarrassed about what I do to cope with being abused. I'm not like everyone else. I never feel safe, and that makes me feel stupid too. Because I feel stupid about it, I don't feel like I have a right to my feelings. So I think my feelings are stupid. But they aren't. I just don't understand them. I don't like them either. And I don't know how to deal with them, so how is anyone else supposed to know how to deal with them, or with me?
I already know all of this. But each day, every time it happens, I still feel stupid, embarrassed, not normal, and I feel about two inches tall and like everyone is either going to step on me, or that they are completely irritated with having to walk around me.
None of this would make sense to anyone else. They would tell me that I am crazy and that everything's fine. But I know different. And that makes me feel alone. Because I am alone. No one else knows any of these things about me, and I'll never tell anyone. ever.
I already know all of this. But each day, every time it happens, I still feel stupid, embarrassed, not normal, and I feel about two inches tall and like everyone is either going to step on me, or that they are completely irritated with having to walk around me.
None of this would make sense to anyone else. They would tell me that I am crazy and that everything's fine. But I know different. And that makes me feel alone. Because I am alone. No one else knows any of these things about me, and I'll never tell anyone. ever.