It's not that I don't trust other people. It's more that I have different interests and I find most people's interests boring. Also, I don't feel like I care about the same things most people care about. I also don't feel understood. I mostly don't bother talking about what really matters to me because I think people will dismiss it. So I just make small talk and pretend to be interested in what most people talk about. I find it boring and exhausting. I read a lot because I find authors are interested in the same topics I'm interested in.