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This is my first time posting, so let me know if I'm doing anything wrong.
I'm seeing a psychologist and have been diagnosed with PTSD from a trauma that occurred over the course of several months when I was 17. During the time of the trauma, I started feeling like I was splitting up. All my emotions would go in one box, and trauma, social situations, daily life, and long-term planning would, roughly speaking, all have their separate boxes. The weird part came when I (the long-term planning bit) started talking to the other "boxes" and directing them to do different things. They all acted very differently and would be present depending on what was happening or what needed to be done. For example, the one that dealt with social situations was very bubbly and talkative, which I was completely unable to do.
After that trauma came to a close, it felt like everything "zipped up." The boxes seemed to slowly disappear until I couldn't feel any of them there anymore. I still have a ton of PTSD symptoms and dissociation, and when I get very triggered, I start to feel things splitting up, and I start to feel all those boxes there again. I can typically calm things down enough that everything comes back together, though.
What is this? Does this sound like anything you guys go through? I talked to a few of my friends, and they said it sounded kind of like DID/OSDD, but as far as I know, I didn't go through anything majorly traumatic in my early childhood. I dealt with some chronic emotional abuse but nothing physical. The only thing I can think of is I had a major personality change when I was five. According to family members, I went from an outgoing, happy-go-lucky kid to a socially anxious, constantly upset, and regressed one.
Thanks in advance! I hope I described this well enough.
This is my first time posting, so let me know if I'm doing anything wrong.
I'm seeing a psychologist and have been diagnosed with PTSD from a trauma that occurred over the course of several months when I was 17. During the time of the trauma, I started feeling like I was splitting up. All my emotions would go in one box, and trauma, social situations, daily life, and long-term planning would, roughly speaking, all have their separate boxes. The weird part came when I (the long-term planning bit) started talking to the other "boxes" and directing them to do different things. They all acted very differently and would be present depending on what was happening or what needed to be done. For example, the one that dealt with social situations was very bubbly and talkative, which I was completely unable to do.
After that trauma came to a close, it felt like everything "zipped up." The boxes seemed to slowly disappear until I couldn't feel any of them there anymore. I still have a ton of PTSD symptoms and dissociation, and when I get very triggered, I start to feel things splitting up, and I start to feel all those boxes there again. I can typically calm things down enough that everything comes back together, though.
What is this? Does this sound like anything you guys go through? I talked to a few of my friends, and they said it sounded kind of like DID/OSDD, but as far as I know, I didn't go through anything majorly traumatic in my early childhood. I dealt with some chronic emotional abuse but nothing physical. The only thing I can think of is I had a major personality change when I was five. According to family members, I went from an outgoing, happy-go-lucky kid to a socially anxious, constantly upset, and regressed one.
Thanks in advance! I hope I described this well enough.