Feeling invaded by my surroundings

ziter

MyPTSD Pro
This may sound weird, I know 😉 I'm currently feeling simultaneously very present in the world (it's like I explore everything) -- and then there's this little part inside who feels invaded by his surroundings. Plus a ton of anxiety, especially agoraphobia. I've read somewhere that it's a depersonification/derealization thing. I connect it to weak boundaries, for my youngest part. I'm not psychotic. And it's not at all as bad as 5 years ago, where I literally felt like the outer world moved into my inner world. Now it's more like a faint sensation, along with a different feeling of being very interested in just about everything around me 😅

Am I the only one? 🤔
 

arfie

MyPTSD Pro
hmmmmmmmmm. . . is that something like thinking of reality as that confusing time between naps?

for sure, it gets me taking another look at my chronic flight instincts. i've never thought of my discomfort in static circumstances as an invasion, but i most certainly believe my flight instincts are evasion based on my fears of entrapment. for sure, i dissociate like a beaten crazy bitch wolf before my flight instincts kick in.

interesting question, ziter. ponderance in progress. . .
 

SallyO

New Here
This may sound weird, I know 😉 I'm currently feeling simultaneously very present in the world (it's like I explore everything) -- and then there's this little part inside who feels invaded by his surroundings. Plus a ton of anxiety, especially agoraphobia. I've read somewhere that it's a depersonification/derealization thing. I connect it to weak boundaries, for my youngest part. I'm not psychotic. And it's not at all as bad as 5 years ago, where I literally felt like the outer world moved into my inner world. Now it's more like a faint sensation, along with a different feeling of being very interested in just about everything around me 😅

Am I the only one? 🤔
That really sounds like anxiety or an anxiety attack. That happened to me and I was agoraphobia when I was in my 20's. I remember going to a live theater and had this strong urge to say something out loud that would disrupt the play?! My therapist told me it was anxiety and now I know he was right. I thought I was nuts.
 

Friday

Moderator
Am I the only one? 🤔
Nope! 😁

In addition to Hypervig where everything is shouting?

It’s actually a fairly core component of my other disorder (ADHD) and it takes rather a lot of time & practice & energy to shove several hundred incoming sensory messages into like groupings, and let them flow by in the background, rather than be constantly assaulted by them. When I get sick, tired, or under certain other kinds of stress? I often lose the ability entirely. Cue meltdown… if I can’t find something external to stick between me & the “everything”. Like extremely loud music (or even better, loud music paired with flashing lights & moving bodies, or driving a vehicle at speed); or jumping into cold water (or one better, cold water with currents).

When ^^^that^^^ marries to my PTSD hypervig? <low whistle> It gets BRUTAL, very very fast. Electric kaleidoscope nightmare hell scape.
 
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