Hi all,
I am 30yo woman with a diagnose of cPTSD.
To summarize, 2 years ago I touched THE bottom and took a sick leave and I've started therapy.
Unfortunately due to the system I had to change therapists many time and the last one, who I have been working for the last year, has just closed suddenly her practice.
I am now again, seeking for a new therapist (Nr 9) and also facing some struggle at work (due to my sick leave isn't clear if I can get an extension or I have to find a new job in a couple of months).
All this lack of reference points and control is triggering my dissociation, numbness, what I call "Netflix brainwashing" and sudden cries.
I feel so expose and with no protection and I am struggling so much to check the basics(eating,moving, sleeping). I know I have improved a lot and I have people who care about me but when my PTSD is so present I feel so lonely and lost again. I always have to fight so much for everything and is exhausting.
So here I am writing, hoping to find some understanding from people who knows how hard is to live with PTSD. I have searched for a community here where I live but unfortunately I couldn't find one and in this moment it makes me feel even more like a ghost.
I am 30yo woman with a diagnose of cPTSD.
To summarize, 2 years ago I touched THE bottom and took a sick leave and I've started therapy.
Unfortunately due to the system I had to change therapists many time and the last one, who I have been working for the last year, has just closed suddenly her practice.
I am now again, seeking for a new therapist (Nr 9) and also facing some struggle at work (due to my sick leave isn't clear if I can get an extension or I have to find a new job in a couple of months).
All this lack of reference points and control is triggering my dissociation, numbness, what I call "Netflix brainwashing" and sudden cries.
I feel so expose and with no protection and I am struggling so much to check the basics(eating,moving, sleeping). I know I have improved a lot and I have people who care about me but when my PTSD is so present I feel so lonely and lost again. I always have to fight so much for everything and is exhausting.
So here I am writing, hoping to find some understanding from people who knows how hard is to live with PTSD. I have searched for a community here where I live but unfortunately I couldn't find one and in this moment it makes me feel even more like a ghost.