I feel chronic depersonalisation and derealisation, but when i experience depersonalisation more and to much more of a heightened degree, I feel as if I want to take my clothes off and even jewellery e.g earrings and my shirt etc. Even in my day-to-day, I really dislike wearing trousers, especially at home and even when I go out, I instead wear long skirts and no trousers underneath. I do this because I feel less constricted, but what I don’t understand is that it not wearing clothes simultaneously grounds me, but doesn’t at the same time. A way not wearing clothes grounds me is, that parts of my body brush up against each other e.g my legs when I’m walking, so it makes my legs feel real to me and it grounds me. However, sometimes not wearing clothes and jewellery DOES NOT ground me and I take my jewellery off to avoid grounding myself, for example, I take my earrings off when I feel a shot of anxiety through my body and I feel uncomfortable because I realise that I’m having a ‘body flashback’-the same thing happens with clothes too, when I feel a ‘body flashback’ as if I’m being molested again, I feel the need to take my top off because the clothes feel like an extra layer that is touching me and I DO NOT want to be touched. Does anyone else have a similar experience? I feel like I’m going mad.