My name is I AM
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I feel so angry with my family right now. I have CPTSD as a result of all the violence and neglect and addiction that went on in my family system then of course i developed all the problems that came with that..then I was visiting sister recently then she got drunk and turned around and said to me a couple of people who we know who i met very breifly at my fathers funeral said they think i have autism. I tried to explain to her the reason the way i was was becuase of ctsd and then came the kick in the stomcach..she says to me..but we all went through the same thing and were not like you...which is rubbish because trauma affects everyone differently...she is a rageholic rather than being the spaced out maladaptive daydreamer like I am . I asked a freind who has known me for years who had an autistic brother if she thought i had it she said she did not think so. I know what my family is like my whole life they have alienated me and called me weird for commiting the crime of not being like them and now this just seems like another way of making me feel like the way i am is my fault.