Hi guys so I haven't posted on here for a while but my mum has cancer and I am living in the uk when she is in the states I hate my father I find my daddy terrifying and want nothing to do with him I know why I find him terrifying but it's hard to say out loud I want to tell my psychiatrist that's I had a nightmare about him a month ago where he ripped off all my clothes when I was young and said your mother can't protect you now I woke up screaming and the next day I self harmed and ended up in hospital but I was hardly going to tell the doctors this I told my mother and she ignored it my sister does not believe I was sexually abused and it's frustrating me she thinks I'm afraid of my father because he wore suits all my childhood coming home from work I regress when I talk to him and I can't stand feeling like a younger girl I miss my self harm a lot I want someone to talk to and anyone to be on my side so I can express my fear and I don't know who to reach out to I wanted it to be anyone but a psychologist I wanted it to be a friend of a family member but I'm scared to tell my counsellor this he will think I'm insane I am overwhelmed by fear of my daddy and I can't stand it luckily he is not living with me at the moment but even when I'm not with him it's still so annoying I don't know how to fix this situation over my Dad my sister said I should be grateful for everything he's done for us I am just wanting somebody to give me a way out and it's just not happening does anyone else have experience in these feelings how do I get my sister to be with me in this