Teasel
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I kind of want to ask others what they do with the sadness of never having been loved.
But at the same time I'm aware that that is a trapped feeling. What I mean is there was a time in my youth where there was no-one to turn to. No-one well disposed towards me even. I don't remember a single kind word from 11 till 15.
I do remember the sexual abuse, scapegoating by my family, bullying by kids at school and ostracism by everyone in our street.
It comes up over and over and over - something will trigger this feeling - feeling sad cause no one likes me. I guess I am re feeling how I felt then?
I don't know I get confused. I regularly feel like it's happening again. That no one likes me. I can feel that way even in the presence of someone being nice to me.
It's like the feeling makes me blind to current reality?
Really mixed up.
Any replies appreciated thanks
But at the same time I'm aware that that is a trapped feeling. What I mean is there was a time in my youth where there was no-one to turn to. No-one well disposed towards me even. I don't remember a single kind word from 11 till 15.
I do remember the sexual abuse, scapegoating by my family, bullying by kids at school and ostracism by everyone in our street.
It comes up over and over and over - something will trigger this feeling - feeling sad cause no one likes me. I guess I am re feeling how I felt then?
I don't know I get confused. I regularly feel like it's happening again. That no one likes me. I can feel that way even in the presence of someone being nice to me.
It's like the feeling makes me blind to current reality?
Really mixed up.
Any replies appreciated thanks