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Apologies in advance if this has been discussed before, I searched to make sure but I could have easily missed.
So I'm not sure if this would count as a question or more of a discussion, but I've recently had to switch therapists. I was seeing Person A for almost 2 years when they decided to open their own practice outside of my insurance network. To put it gently, I was crushed because it was the first healthy role model in my life and I grew a pretty deep attachment (never verbalized). I found a new therapist who I felt comfortable with, Person B. As of writing this post, I've been going to session with Person B for about 6 months.
But here's where my question is - I still feel very bitter that I was forced to switch therapists. I know it wasn't anyone's fault, these things just happen and I can't ask someone to stay stagnant for my own benefit. But I feel so much bitterness towards Person B, because they aren't Person A and act/think/therapize differently. Bitterness because I didn't want to choose someone new, I had no choice. I like Person B's style and they make me feel challenged in session and I feel bad that I'm so closed off towards them and constantly throw up road blocks. I've never really spoken about how hurtful the experience was with Person A but I thought I had started to move on a little emotionally. But it's still so raw.
I have a really intense block towards crying in session. Could this defense mechanism be blocking me from crying over Person A in session with Person B? Is that even necessary for this situation? I don't know what to do. I feel so static in my progress and it's so irritating to my core.
Thanks to anyone reading this or considering replying
-goose
So I'm not sure if this would count as a question or more of a discussion, but I've recently had to switch therapists. I was seeing Person A for almost 2 years when they decided to open their own practice outside of my insurance network. To put it gently, I was crushed because it was the first healthy role model in my life and I grew a pretty deep attachment (never verbalized). I found a new therapist who I felt comfortable with, Person B. As of writing this post, I've been going to session with Person B for about 6 months.
But here's where my question is - I still feel very bitter that I was forced to switch therapists. I know it wasn't anyone's fault, these things just happen and I can't ask someone to stay stagnant for my own benefit. But I feel so much bitterness towards Person B, because they aren't Person A and act/think/therapize differently. Bitterness because I didn't want to choose someone new, I had no choice. I like Person B's style and they make me feel challenged in session and I feel bad that I'm so closed off towards them and constantly throw up road blocks. I've never really spoken about how hurtful the experience was with Person A but I thought I had started to move on a little emotionally. But it's still so raw.
I have a really intense block towards crying in session. Could this defense mechanism be blocking me from crying over Person A in session with Person B? Is that even necessary for this situation? I don't know what to do. I feel so static in my progress and it's so irritating to my core.
Thanks to anyone reading this or considering replying
-goose