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My therapist went on vacation for a week. Before and after the week she was gone, I asked for a phone call. She said I can always ask, and she’ll let me know. I hardly ever ask. No response. For over two weeks. I found other support.
No response to a request for a scheduling change either.
The last session left me feeling really upset with her. I emailed about it - she encourages emails, with the understanding that she will usually not respond. I shared something really shameful in the email, trying to explain I think my upset with her is probably connected to this past event and past pattern.
I have an appointment this Thursday. It hit me this weekend that maybe she’s not responding because she plans to quit. I haven’t had any feelings about that possibility. Just feeling rather “whatever” about it.
At work today, this all crossed my mind and I’m staying regulated ok, but I keep blushing. Random waves of shame. Maybe it’s connected to a fear she will quit because I’m upset about the last session or the old stuff it stirred up... but it’s really bugging me that for over two weeks there isn’t any yes or no to my request for a call. If she said no, that would be ok. But the lack of any response is hard.
Not sure what to do except show up Thursday - and yet at the same time, I’m thinking of canceling Thursday, since I can’t even get a response to rescheduling, because I have a hard day at work that day and having a very hard therapy session before work... isn’t a good mix.
Any thoughts or suggestions?
No response to a request for a scheduling change either.
The last session left me feeling really upset with her. I emailed about it - she encourages emails, with the understanding that she will usually not respond. I shared something really shameful in the email, trying to explain I think my upset with her is probably connected to this past event and past pattern.
I have an appointment this Thursday. It hit me this weekend that maybe she’s not responding because she plans to quit. I haven’t had any feelings about that possibility. Just feeling rather “whatever” about it.
At work today, this all crossed my mind and I’m staying regulated ok, but I keep blushing. Random waves of shame. Maybe it’s connected to a fear she will quit because I’m upset about the last session or the old stuff it stirred up... but it’s really bugging me that for over two weeks there isn’t any yes or no to my request for a call. If she said no, that would be ok. But the lack of any response is hard.
Not sure what to do except show up Thursday - and yet at the same time, I’m thinking of canceling Thursday, since I can’t even get a response to rescheduling, because I have a hard day at work that day and having a very hard therapy session before work... isn’t a good mix.
Any thoughts or suggestions?