Aubree Myers
New Here
looking for some insight, I was in an extraordinarily abusive relationship for 6(ish) years. My current parter is an amazing, caring, and gentle guy. I've experienced fight or flight, or an extreme physical and mental response to things a handful of times post-abuse before, but nothing like this - after some nice afternoon intimacy, he pinned my arms above my head (thinking it would be cute to tickle me). We were both naked, there wasn't even a thought process for me - all I knew was what I felt, I need him off of me and I needed my torso/upper half of my body covered immediately. I bit him, freed my arm, and hit his arm and face. He was so shocked and confused, and I am humiliated and ashamed. I don't know how to describe that moment for me, it was like a flashback, it felt like danger, I think it was a fight or flight response triggered by my PTSD. I am not a violent person, and my boyfriend meant no harm. I feel like the abuser now and I'm so, so ashamed. Has anyone else experienced a trigger like this in front of someone and had to explain what happened?