Before I was diagnosed I was a party person, I was always where the action was. I believe I had PTSD even then, but undiagnosed... But since being diagnosed, I am a home body. I don't go out very often, and then not to party's. Just out with a few friends, shopping, and such. But I do tend to isolate now....
I was really sociable too, before my breakdown. Like She Cat, I've more than likely had PTSD for most of my life. I don't think my partying behavior prior to the diagnosis was very healthy - I would drink lots and although I knew lots of people, I didn't have very secure relationships with many of them. I have to work on being social now and try not to keep myself to myself too much. Quality friendships are very important. A balance of both is probably a good thing.
I agree with dust. Before i was diagnosed I used every bad coping skill there was, to get me through. Drinking, drugs, men, smoking going to bars, you name it I did it. but, once I was diagnosed, I had a name, PTSD.....Something I could grab onto, something that actually gave me hope. Yes, hope, because before i was convinced that I was just nuts with the shit I was going through in my head, and what I was experiencing...... So, I worked on getting better, and you can't get better doing what I was doing..........
I used to be so social and active, outgoing and self-confident able to supervize people and teach a group of 48 students. Since my dx and the symptoms...isolation is about as bad as it could be. I mostly just want to be left alone. Each and every social outting takes alot of thought..before there was no thought, I just did things now not at all.
I've always been a loner. However, as I got older my social anxiety increased. I'm scared to death of crowds and even small gatherings at work make me super-anxious. I like playing Second Life, but I find myself gravitating to sims that are low-populated or way out of the way. I cringe inwardly when another avatar even teleports into the same location.
I used to be super social, but since my breakdown I find I isolate more. I can definitely gauge how I am doing by my activity level or how hard it is for me to be with people. If I am struggling I withdraw and isolate. I have to say though that even though I am very social when I am feeling good....it's all a front. I really hate large gatherings, always. I don't feel that I am as good as others, I feel different from other people. I wear a good mask, most people wouldn't have any idea how uncomfortable I am inside. In fact I think I can even fake myself out LOL!
I have always been more of a loner. I isolate a lot especially when things are tougher than usual which really tends to make me more depressed and unhappy but I don't feel like I fit in anywhere. I have never felt like a "part" of anything no matter where I go or how hard I try. I do have to say just like Iam no one would guess that I feel like that inside. I have such a happy face I am very good at hiding all of my feelings. No one would guess how I am really feeling inside. I can be dying from the pain inside and still smile and laugh. I am really good at faking it for everyone else.