Since February I have been bringing to the surface the memories about the sexual abuse I had been through. I knew my father was an ***hole, but this was too much in my head. When I am kind of settling down with some of the stuff and then BUM! another flashback involving other episode with him or not comes.
I am getting really tired of this. Every time it happens it makes me understand better my personal history. On the other hand it makes me really uncomfortable about some people. It is like all my reality is changing. The last one I had involved a childhood friend raping me... This is crazy and I don't know how to stop! I feel crazy. I also feel very alone because this happened some days ago and I could not reach help. Right now I have nobody to talk to and this is really hurting.
I really wish I could stop this. I am very tired and I want to do my things... work, study, take care of my home, etc. but this whole thing is not allowing it to happen. Will I ever get my life back?
I am getting really tired of this. Every time it happens it makes me understand better my personal history. On the other hand it makes me really uncomfortable about some people. It is like all my reality is changing. The last one I had involved a childhood friend raping me... This is crazy and I don't know how to stop! I feel crazy. I also feel very alone because this happened some days ago and I could not reach help. Right now I have nobody to talk to and this is really hurting.
I really wish I could stop this. I am very tired and I want to do my things... work, study, take care of my home, etc. but this whole thing is not allowing it to happen. Will I ever get my life back?