I feel like I can't be myself ever. I'm too trusting, too emotional. It's like I either shut down completely to protect myself, or I open up. I want to be open and expresse myself and my feelings without someone seeing it as a target. I can't tell the difference in people when they are trying to be a friend, or to take advantage. Why do people have to be so horrible. I know there are good people out there. I should know better that when someone talks to me they usually want something. I'm trying to be calm, but everytime someone takes advantage of me my world view gets bleaker and bleaker. There are a very large amount of people online that have no problems lying for weeks just so at some point they can try to scam you out of money. I don't even have any! Then they use all the conventions that you had as an emotional weapon when they don't get what they want. It hurts so much. Whats the alternative, just be alone forever? Lonelyness hurts like hell too.if I do meet someone that is horrible, how do I know? I don't need help to be broken. I fall apart on my own. It makes me want to wrap this phone charger around my neck, and be done with it.