StrongMind
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Hello, I am new to this forum. I was stabbed when I was 17 and almost lost my life. Tapping, metal clanging, and anything loud banging triggers me. I know my grandma trys hypnosis and also triggers me at the same time. I'm 20 now and she has been doing this since I was 18 but now shes trying even harder. Whenever I address it she acts like she has no clue what im talking about but me and everyone else in my family knows exactly what shes doing. Whenever I disagree with anything she believes or says I should do she will start tapping and trying hypnosis techniques like changing her tone of voice and then saying somethinng totally suggestive, whenever she notices me resisting she goes even harder! It is reallying annoying at this point and I don't know what to do. I feel like I HAVE to work towards something constantly in life and I feel doomed if I don't keep my mind busy. I feel like that stems from the PTSD. So that and a combonation of my grandmother and the fact that I have trouble living my life (making friends, going for a simple walk, starting conversation) is getting very overwhelming. I went to a therapist once but I can not afford it all the time. I need help because I feel myslef getting worse. Can anyone else relate or give me any advice? Thank you :)