The_One
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My dad died suddenly at age 56 from a heart attack: he went into the icu and died five days later. I was 14 and only saw him twice in the icu. I was so traumatized from that while experience.
I’m 28 now and my grandpa is now in the icu for something very similar. And he’s not expected to make it. I have a complicated relationship with him but I’m having trouble sleeping because I saw them do chest compressions and now I saw him hooked up to ventilators just like my dad was.
Idk what to do because I need to sleep to be able to work tomorrow but whenevr I close my eyes I see my grandpa being compressed by ems or in the bed having tubes for breathing.
What do I do? I know grief is normal even though at some points I really hated my grandpa. But now I am feeling guilty sad and feel like I’m getting traumatized.
I want to sleep!!
I’m 28 now and my grandpa is now in the icu for something very similar. And he’s not expected to make it. I have a complicated relationship with him but I’m having trouble sleeping because I saw them do chest compressions and now I saw him hooked up to ventilators just like my dad was.
Idk what to do because I need to sleep to be able to work tomorrow but whenevr I close my eyes I see my grandpa being compressed by ems or in the bed having tubes for breathing.
What do I do? I know grief is normal even though at some points I really hated my grandpa. But now I am feeling guilty sad and feel like I’m getting traumatized.
I want to sleep!!