Thinkingman85
MyPTSD Pro
I'm starting to realize that a lot of my depression is because of guilt. Recently, my feelings of guilt have been lifting. My therapist and my friends both tell me that I beat myself up. However, it seems like that's how I function now.
I made mistakes six years ago and I still hold on to the guilt. I behaved in a way toward people that I wish I wouldn't have. Still, I was trying my best in the rough circumstance that I was in. Even after suffering for six years, it still feels like it is the wrong thing to do to not beat myself up over how I acted in the past. I feel like if I'm not attached to pain, then the people I had difficult situations with will not have their justice. Inversely, I feel like if I do let go of the guilt and the people still hate me or don't like me, that it is wrong for me to not feel bad.
In all, I think that my way of perceiving what happened is blown out of proportion and I'm making myself out as a guy worse than what he really is. It's hard when you're feelings are there though.
Another form of guilt that my therapist mentioned is survivor guilt. If anyone has some wisdom regarding this area, it would aid in recovery. All the best.
I made mistakes six years ago and I still hold on to the guilt. I behaved in a way toward people that I wish I wouldn't have. Still, I was trying my best in the rough circumstance that I was in. Even after suffering for six years, it still feels like it is the wrong thing to do to not beat myself up over how I acted in the past. I feel like if I'm not attached to pain, then the people I had difficult situations with will not have their justice. Inversely, I feel like if I do let go of the guilt and the people still hate me or don't like me, that it is wrong for me to not feel bad.
In all, I think that my way of perceiving what happened is blown out of proportion and I'm making myself out as a guy worse than what he really is. It's hard when you're feelings are there though.
Another form of guilt that my therapist mentioned is survivor guilt. If anyone has some wisdom regarding this area, it would aid in recovery. All the best.