Not sure if this is a cognitive distortion, but I'm sure I'm left dyregulated by it so I put this here. If it belongs somewhere else, sorry for posting it in the wrong place. I realized I get happy feelings when something bad happens to me, can be not particularly related to trauma but bad nonetheless. I'm sure this is a reaction due to habit of shitty things happening all the time, what's familiar and whatnot. But it's weird as hell. When my ex left me and found someone else, I was really happy but it was a fake happy, I felt happiness, but in my mind I was sad. Then other stuff happened, and the same thing. I thought I was more centered now, more stable, and this wasn't happening anymore, turns out it is! My landlord wants to jack up the price of my rent and I can't afford it, so he told me I had a number of months to leave, and I know I won't be able to find another good and cheap apartment near here - I might even need to move from this town -, and I got happy!! How screwed up is this? After the happy feelings I get overexcited, then I plummet and the apathy begins. No feelings whatsoever afterwards. My T says it's the way my mind learned how to deal with crap that happens, transform it into a good thing, even though I rationally know it's probably not that good. Well, my ex was kind of a good thing, he actually did me a favor but the rest is all stuff that affects my life deeply. Due to this move I have to stop going to therapy so often, I'll spend a bunch of money because rents are sky high, might need to get a second job, not sure if I'll be able to continue my studies And I'm happy about this. Anyone else have this? Any tips on how to deal?