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Message: <blockquote data-quote="Friday" data-source="post: 1720646" data-attributes="member: 27208">ANY kind of outward physical reaction during a flashback? Oh yeah. In a great big way. Which is why the single most important thing to me, with either flashbacks or being triggered, is self control. Even so? I’ve come far too close to killing someone far too many times. Because I don’t cry during flashbacks, I usually get violent, if I don’t divorce my thoughts/feelings/actions from each other. As actions that made perfect sense -and were completely justified- 20 years ago? Are anything but sensible and just, today. <snicker> I have this crazy reputation for patience that is absolutely undeserved. I have virtually no patience to speak of, and a wicked hot temper. But I DO have -and am willing to fight for- self control.It was the very first thing I learned, and it’s something I take exceptional care to stay on top of.If wasn’t an easy thing to learn, and harder still not to overcorrect (losing all the gifts of instinctual reactions). The thing I absolutely hate the very most with PTSD is no longer being able to trust my own judgment. To not simply be able to relax and trust my instincts to take over and do what needs doing if/when needed. That DOES return, in time, but it takes a lot of work.A couple of links you’ll probably find useful[URL unfurl="true"]https://www.myptsd.com/threads/how-to-use-triggers-as-a-means-to-recovery.87557/[/URL][URL unfurl="true"]https://www.myptsd.com/threads/the-ptsd-cup-explanation.83659/[/URL]</blockquote>

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