Has anyone ever "seen"...? Visual Flashbacks

GreySouled

Learning
Has anyone ever experienced "seeing" a p***s that isn't there? I'll give two examples:

One was a few years ago, I was at my place of worship and, turning my head to the left, noticed an older man going into the restroom out in the lobby. I remember thinking: "Eww, now I'm picturing him in the bathroom." I turned my head back to focus on the speaker straight ahead and "saw" a boner, clear as day, to the right of my face. I ducked my head away from it and thought: "No, I can't do that here!", as if responding to a request. (For reference, I've never "done that" or anything remotely "that" ever with anyone... oh wait, except for at some point in childhood, apparently).

Then this past Thursday, after my T session which was "eventful" (introduced to new IFS part and just some things that came up or that I felt afraid to let come up... I got confused at one point because my Little One thinks she's 3 or 4ish, but this info points to 7. Anyway, not to get into that... only to say that it was a session that rattled my whole nervous system). So, afterward, I pick up my kid and we run a few errands. Upon parking, turning off the ignition, and reaching over to the passenger seat to get my mask out of my purse, when I sit back upright I glance back down in my lap and see clear as day a frigging p***s between my legs, pointed at me, you know... I kind of gasped, shook my head and said out loud: "See, this is what I'm talking about." (A rebuttal in my ongoing imaginary conversation to naysayers who'd rather believe I'm making this all up). I mean, the detail, coloration, it was just too real, especially to never have seen one up close before, you know?

All this to ask, because I don't think I've ever come upon an experience where someone is FBing or seeing just a bodyless p***s, if anyone has dealt with this... Yes, I'll bring this up with T next time, but I always feel more validated when I know someone else has experienced the same, makes me feel less crazy.
 

GreySouled

Learning
OK yes, I've definitely had a few full immersion blips FB out of nowhere, definitely pain, sometimes auditory as I'm falling asleep. But a superimposed bodiless... hoojibob? I had to ask.
 

arfie

MyPTSD Pro
disembodied body parts are not normal-for-me, but sensory hallucinations are quite normal-for-me. in my case, i think those hallucinations go beyond ptsd flashbacks. proof unavailable, but i believe i "think" with my senses, then translate that sensory data to spoken language. i'm multi-lingual, so i can translate to more than one spoken language. intrusive thoughts are as common in my sensory language as my spoken language. just believing. . . i wouldn't attempt to defend the theory in public.

gentle support while you form your own theories, grey.
 

shimmerz

MyPTSD Pro
Maybe if it happens again, use another sense for verification. It may stop the flashback if you negate the experience with attempting to touch it and your brain realizes it can't be touched. Kind of like a mirror box Norman Doidge) approach to it.
 
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