Clydiechick
Confident
I feel about as low as I can go at the moment. I am definately in flight mode. I just want to get in my car and go, where? I don't know.
I think about dying, the peace and quiet. But then I think about my kids.
I feel like a square peg in a round hole. I am definately isolating myself from all of my family, it's getting worse. I feel like I talk and nobody listens, I have all these feelings, thoughts and emotions that I have to keep to myself. My husband doesn't say a word, I don't know why I bother. I said to him yesterday, "One day you will wake up and I will be gone, everyone will say, I never say they never saw it coming, didn't think she'd do that, how could she leave?" Then I said to him, "You'll be able to say 'you talked about it all the time, I just never thought she'd do it.'" Again he said nothing. HELLO, the bells are ringing but nobody is at home, I'M SERIOUS.:wall:
If somebody said to me, "It's okay, just go, everyone will be okay." I'd be gone in a flash, again where? I don't know.
Can somebody tell me something that will help? PLEASE:rofl:
I think about dying, the peace and quiet. But then I think about my kids.
I feel like a square peg in a round hole. I am definately isolating myself from all of my family, it's getting worse. I feel like I talk and nobody listens, I have all these feelings, thoughts and emotions that I have to keep to myself. My husband doesn't say a word, I don't know why I bother. I said to him yesterday, "One day you will wake up and I will be gone, everyone will say, I never say they never saw it coming, didn't think she'd do that, how could she leave?" Then I said to him, "You'll be able to say 'you talked about it all the time, I just never thought she'd do it.'" Again he said nothing. HELLO, the bells are ringing but nobody is at home, I'M SERIOUS.:wall:
If somebody said to me, "It's okay, just go, everyone will be okay." I'd be gone in a flash, again where? I don't know.
Can somebody tell me something that will help? PLEASE:rofl: