Undiagnosed Having a difficult time lately, and now something new, I'm not sure what it is

Cadence108

New Here
I've been having a really difficult time lately. But something new is happening to me and I'm not sure what it is.
So I suffer from depression and anxiety and always feel extremely lonely and empty. Also there is this other teenage girl in my head who sometimes has violent urges. There's also this little child who is like me when I was small. She loves talking and the teenager is quite protective of her. Yesterday for the first time she spoke to one of our friends, who was absolutely lovely. And now I feel so much better, but the little girl wants to keep talking and I know this is not safe. What is this? I know it's not DID because they aren't alters, I'm aware the whole time and I'm consciously doing it. Could it be PTSD? I've been through some traumatic experiences so I guess it could.. I'm just not sure at this point.
 

PTSDisaster

Confident
Is having a teenage girl in your head the only symptom of ptsd or do you experience more symptoms?

Do you have a therapist?? After your other post about the girl in your head, I don't think it's a bad idea to contact a therapist.
 

Cadence108

New Here
I have a therapist and a doctor but they aren't free till Tuesday. After the traumatic events I had lots of symptoms - nightmares, intrusive memories, lots of fear. I've never been formally diagnosed with PTSD though.
 

ruborcoraxxx

MyPTSD Pro
Hi, welcome to the forum. It's common to have to wait for a formal diagnose. What you describe sounds like PTSD but of course that would have to be confirmed by a diagnose, which isn't always easy.

On the dissociative identity stuff, there is quite a spectrum between "hearing" parts and having parts that got stuck at a particular time, but not having time losses or amnesia or whatsoever.

But I would say that if you're getting aggravated, symptomatic and in high distress you should go to a psych ER. At least to taper down and see what you do until a proper appointment. You don't have to sit through such high levels of distress and anxiety, it can be dangerous if there is self harm or suicidal urges or if you feel you're about to lose control.

And sometimes we feel like it's it's manageable but that's the window before it gets unmanageable. And it's okay to show up at the emergency at that moment. It's much better than showing up too late.
 

whiteraven

MyPTSD Pro
On the dissociative identity stuff, there is quite a spectrum between "hearing" parts and having parts that got stuck at a particular time, but not having time losses or amnesia or whatsoever.
This. Also, I was diagnosed with DID in 1998 and most of my lost time was much earlier than that and not something I even realized until we really explored it. And I probably haven't lost time at all in the last several years, but I still hear my insiders sometimes. I've gone through whole periods when I was absolutely aware of some of those inside and their switches.
 

Sideways

Moderator
Also there is this other teenage girl in my head who sometimes has violent urges. There's also this little child who is like me when I was small. She loves talking and the teenager is quite protective of her. Yesterday for the first time she spoke to one of our friends, who was absolutely lovely.
PTSD definitely isn't the first mental health disorder that comes to mind. And definitely not DID.

You should speak to your therapist about this.
 

Cadence108

New Here
Good morning! Thank you everyone who has replied to me.
I'm feeling better now. It changes in a second, but for now I'm just appreciating it. Does anyone have any advice for communicating with another person in your head? Or some activities that would be fun for a six year old to do? I want to get to know the other two better. Thank you!

I will definitely speak to my therapist about it.
 

joeylittle

Administrator
Yesterday for the first time she spoke to one of our friends, who was absolutely lovely. And now I feel so much better, but the little girl wants to keep talking and I know this is not safe. What is this? I know it's not DID because they aren't alters, I'm aware the whole time and I'm consciously doing it.
Does anyone have any advice for communicating with another person in your head?
I bolded the sections I'd like to emphasize.

You are aware the whole time, and you are aware that you are choosing to speak as different aspects of yourself.

These aren't other people. They are different aspects of yourself.

People talk with themselves many different ways. Journaling is a good method. I just want to encourage you to be very upfront with your therapist about all of this, and ask them for advice on what you can do when you are feeling overwhelmed.
 
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