Hello everyone, I'm Lesley, I'm 37 years old and I was mentally, psychologically and neglected from been as young as 4 by both parents til just a few months ago when I realised what they did classed as abuse. I've nearly off the symptoms of CPTSD, especially the physical affects. I'm constantly on edge around my mum and I feel disconnected from the world, it's like I'm here but I'm not. I don't feel special, I'm scared of conflict in case something "bad" happens. I'm nearly always bored but I'm too edgy to do anything and to actually unwind, I can only really unwind when it's bedtime and I can put on headphones to drown out the thoughts, and flashbacks in my head. I've been diagnosed with depression and anxiety and I was reading that both of those are related to CPTSD. I'm scared of my friends leaving me and I cannot stand up for myself in a argument. Thanks for reading. I'm very easily startled and even my other half sneezing I jump out of my skin with fright.