Hi,I`m Gordon from Glasgow,Scotland.I`ve recently dicovered that Im suffering from PTSD.My initial reaction has been positive and one of relief,as I have previously been diagnosed as Bi Polar and just given medication to take.At least now I feel empowered towards finding a way out of this nightmare.Im also experiencing tearful episodes,something Ive been wanting to happen for years.When I was experiencing a recent period of feeling"like my emotional legs had buckled from under me again" for no apparent reason I managed to obtain some information on PTSD and I was stunned to see that I fell in with almost every diagnostic symptom.Something that had never been the case with the Bi Polar equivalent.I have also been experiencing uncomfortable and upsetting dreams in which there is always a sense of danger,impending combat,discovery or pursuit.I usually experience a sense of fear in these dreams,something I felt very blocked from when I was in actual combat,danger during a period of time spent in the armed forces.
There are also attachment trauma issues from much younger in life,the completely unexpected and devastating loss of my wife of 4 mths.(this was 4 years ago,but I still very often feel completely panicked,angry and confused) A good day is to feel devestated regarding this,a bad day and I cant leave the house without a great effort.
Around 2 years ago,my mothers health started to fail and I increasingly became her carer until she died in Feb this year.Since the I`ve felt tired at times,but I can recognise that I am having a "normal" grief reaction to that but a traumatic reaction to the loss of my marriage.
There are also attachment trauma issues from much younger in life,the completely unexpected and devastating loss of my wife of 4 mths.(this was 4 years ago,but I still very often feel completely panicked,angry and confused) A good day is to feel devestated regarding this,a bad day and I cant leave the house without a great effort.
Around 2 years ago,my mothers health started to fail and I increasingly became her carer until she died in Feb this year.Since the I`ve felt tired at times,but I can recognise that I am having a "normal" grief reaction to that but a traumatic reaction to the loss of my marriage.
