My name is - what do I put my name or my login name?
I don't know if I have PTS(D) after reading Anthony's descriptions who knows. All I know is my memory is shot, I have a ball in my stomach, I can barely breath, I'm sure I'm going to die the list goes on. I was sexually abused and was terrorized by a drunken suicidal mother. She died unexpectedly, then my partners mother was diagnosed with terminal cancer which we took her through that and I watched her die and then all hell broke loose for me emotionally and now all I am doing is remembering my past and I am angry and feeling all alone and.... I think this is ruminating... so I'll stop because I'm afraid once I really start it/I won't ever stop.
Right now I have total anxiety just writing this
But I am willing.
I've got this first thing in my book marks
Bye for now...because now I watch.
Later
I don't know if I have PTS(D) after reading Anthony's descriptions who knows. All I know is my memory is shot, I have a ball in my stomach, I can barely breath, I'm sure I'm going to die the list goes on. I was sexually abused and was terrorized by a drunken suicidal mother. She died unexpectedly, then my partners mother was diagnosed with terminal cancer which we took her through that and I watched her die and then all hell broke loose for me emotionally and now all I am doing is remembering my past and I am angry and feeling all alone and.... I think this is ruminating... so I'll stop because I'm afraid once I really start it/I won't ever stop.
Right now I have total anxiety just writing this
But I am willing.
I've got this first thing in my book marks
Bye for now...because now I watch.
Later