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I don't know how to explain this. I'll write short and try to ask my question.
My therapist wants me to stop the dissociation. I want to dive into it but with a safety net. She doesn't know how and I don't know either. The strategy has been very effective against flashbacks.
She thinks I am sending her mixed signals about what to do. Like I want her to help me out if my parts take over my body. Otherwise be curious. I think I do send mixed signals. I guess I am confused.
It is not working out. She gets frustrated by me asking for opposite things, and I get scared and feel helpless. And if she has any emotions towards me I feel like I am a bad person. And that it is my fault that I don't like my family.
I don't feel that we are even talking about the same things. I don't know how to deal.
I have a written down what I want to do when I dissociate, it is most likely when I have an emotional flashback or similar.
I want to express:
What am I feeling?
What am I thinking?
Who is it/what part is it?
Then get emotional support for expressing my feelings
I have talked about it. Yet, I am not able to say when I dissociate because I don't feel safe to express myself. I don't feel that she understands this part.
What should I do?
My therapist wants me to stop the dissociation. I want to dive into it but with a safety net. She doesn't know how and I don't know either. The strategy has been very effective against flashbacks.
She thinks I am sending her mixed signals about what to do. Like I want her to help me out if my parts take over my body. Otherwise be curious. I think I do send mixed signals. I guess I am confused.
It is not working out. She gets frustrated by me asking for opposite things, and I get scared and feel helpless. And if she has any emotions towards me I feel like I am a bad person. And that it is my fault that I don't like my family.
I don't feel that we are even talking about the same things. I don't know how to deal.
I have a written down what I want to do when I dissociate, it is most likely when I have an emotional flashback or similar.
I want to express:
What am I feeling?
What am I thinking?
Who is it/what part is it?
Then get emotional support for expressing my feelings
I have talked about it. Yet, I am not able to say when I dissociate because I don't feel safe to express myself. I don't feel that she understands this part.
What should I do?