Six years ago my parents put me in in foster care. I lived with one foster family for almost a year & the father of the family repeatedly molested me. The first time it ever happened was on Christmas. When I happened I tried to report the father but nobody would believe me. It wasn’t until almost a year after this happened that I finally found support from a police officer who helped get my case out there, but the only outcome of this was a slap on the wrist for the father. To this day I still double check all my locks & check over my shoulder because I think he will find me. I know this is insane because he would never be able to find me as I am not even in the same country.
Every Christmas is a huge trigger for me & I really stuggle with feelings of helplessness & suicide. I have tried to get counselling but it has never been a good experience for me. I feel so alone in this stuggle & have no idea who to turn to or what to do anymore. It’s been six years & the feelings are just as strong as the day it happened. Will it ever hurt less? Will I ever stop living in fear? Please help me
Every Christmas is a huge trigger for me & I really stuggle with feelings of helplessness & suicide. I have tried to get counselling but it has never been a good experience for me. I feel so alone in this stuggle & have no idea who to turn to or what to do anymore. It’s been six years & the feelings are just as strong as the day it happened. Will it ever hurt less? Will I ever stop living in fear? Please help me