OptimisticRealist
Learning
I think the thread title pretty much sums it up, but things are ROUGH right now. Gf has C-PTSD and has been highly symptomatic and disregulated for weeks. She says that I'm a different person and that she doesn't like who I am now compared with when we were "just friends". We're not speaking currently, it's unhealthy for us both and we're on the verge of a break-up...her decision, not mine. She can't acknowledge that the changes in me are from the persistent trauma I dealt with while helping her leave her ex. Says I'm using ptsd as an excuse for my changed behavior, which granted is pretty extreme. I'm anxious 24/7, hyper-vigilant, and when I have a panic attack I need major reassurance that what I'm feeling in the moment isn't what's actually happening. It sucks. I get on my own nerves. It will be a small miracle if we make it through this patch intact. I'm trying to handle my issues, just saw a new therapist today who is going to give me a formal evaluation and diagnosis just to make sure therapy goes in the direction it needs to. I felt like there was a question I was intending to ask, but apparently rambling is all I can do right now. Huge issue with focus, sleep, and work these days. Ugh. Uugghhhh.