Sufferer Hi! I am New Here.. CPTSD. Scared but Hopeful!

[Chelle4420]

Hello I was diagnosed with CPTSD in 2012 during my first trip to rehab, I was 25yrs old. I was 6yrs into an opiate addiction and would spend another 5yrs self medicating. I am proud to say I Did get clean, in Oct 2018, and now have 3yrs of clean time. I thought that getting clean would solve All my problems. I got pregnant in 2018 and had my 3rd child. Her father and I met in NA, he moved to a town close to my hometown so we could be close to my 2 sons that live with my ex's parents and we have worked Very Hard to build a life we can be proud of here.. but I couldn't shake this stuck feeling. I couldn't figure out Why I was still having this cycle of thoughts, moods, and outbursts.. and it hit me, CPTSD. I didn't know it was this Bad, I had never lived with it soberly as an adult. So here I am, starting a new self help journey at 35. I started looking into it online, took the ACE and scored 10 outta 10. It scared me, so I took the PACE and scored a 9.. That gave me hope that I could work through this and learn to manage. I don't want to cause my children to continue the cycle. My middle child is already dealing with some Serious Depression/Suicidal issues at 12yrs and I don't want my daughter to have issues as she gets older. Thank you

 

[Survivor3]

Hi @Chelle4420 welcome to the site ☺ I'm an alcoholic, 17 months sober.

 

[arfie]

hello chelle. welcome to the forum.

congratulations on your sobriety. kudos on your wisdom in looking for ways to heal the injuries which had you self-medicating in the first place. robust applause for your compassion in seeking ways to help your middle child overcome her place in the family cycle. example is not one way to influence others. it's the only way.

healing hopes for all. no exceptions. steadying support while your will finds its way.

 

[Actualise]

Wow Chelle! You are strong! Respect for the sobriety/ clean state you achieved!
Re CPTSD get yourself a trauma informed therapist to work on it. EMDR has been something that has helped many faster than many modalities. Of course you need to find your own way.
Your post is so positive essentially - you’ve turned a massive corner and you’re on a homestretch(of course life is constant learning so it goes on to an extent always).
I’m sure you will overcome the C/PTSD! Keep on trucking!

 

[Chelle4420]

Hi @Chelle4420 welcome to the site ☺ I'm an alcoholic, 17 months sober.

Thank you! Congrats on your sobriety!! It's a Grand accomplishment.

Wow Chelle! You are strong! Respect for the sobriety/ clean state you achieved!
Re CPTSD get yourself a trauma informed therapist to work on it. EMDR has been something that has helped many faster than many modalities. Of course you need to find your own way.
Your post is so positive essentially - you’ve turned a massive corner and you’re on a homestretch(of course life is constant learning so it goes on to an extent always).
I’m sure you will overcome the C/PTSD! Keep on trucking!

Thank you! I appreciate the advice on finding a therapist.. I have been running that through my head also. I have seen a few throughout my life but again was working on the addiction and not the cPTSD. I finally feel safe from my addiction and am quickly learning what role my Ptsd plays in my life so I have faith I can overcome too

hello chelle. welcome to the forum.

congratulations on your sobriety. kudos on your wisdom in looking for ways to heal the injuries which had you self-medicating in the first place. robust applause for your compassion in seeking ways to help your middle child overcome her place in the family cycle. example is not one way to influence others. it's the only way.

healing hopes for all. no exceptions. steadying support while your will finds its way.

Thank you, thank you!! I do realize these intense emotions and isolating behaviors are part of the reason I couldn't get and stay clean for So Long but am so ready to address them and hopefully in the process I can help my son find stay ground.