Wasn't-Born-Crazy
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Hello fellow Survivors. I recently joined an outdoors forum and I got curious if there was a forum for Survivors of Childhood Abuse. I searched and found MyPTSD so here I am.
My background - I suffered years of neglect, physical & sexual childhood abuse. After suicide attempts at 12 & 14 yr., DFS removed me from my "home". I bounced around in the system, living with foster families and an orphanage.
All my life I have tried to heal from the abuse. I've seen more therapists & read more self help books țhan most can imagine. I got tired of it all & tried burying it for years but this last year I hit a wall. I recently lost my BFF & that loss has been difficult because he was one of the few people I ever trusted, let alone a man. I don't trust men, not even my husband most of the time. He tries to be understanding because my therapist years ago told him that I would never trust anyone. I was furious about that, for a minute, til the Truth of it sunk in.
At 53, I'm forced to acknowledge this PTSD is too much for me to handle some days. I'm trying. I'm still Fighting but some days its hard to bury the pain, the anxiety & to "function".
I'm glad to be here. I hope that we all find a way to Heal our fractures.
Any of you feel crazy sometimes or been called crazy? Well, you're not - you've got PTSD just like Me!
My background - I suffered years of neglect, physical & sexual childhood abuse. After suicide attempts at 12 & 14 yr., DFS removed me from my "home". I bounced around in the system, living with foster families and an orphanage.
All my life I have tried to heal from the abuse. I've seen more therapists & read more self help books țhan most can imagine. I got tired of it all & tried burying it for years but this last year I hit a wall. I recently lost my BFF & that loss has been difficult because he was one of the few people I ever trusted, let alone a man. I don't trust men, not even my husband most of the time. He tries to be understanding because my therapist years ago told him that I would never trust anyone. I was furious about that, for a minute, til the Truth of it sunk in.
At 53, I'm forced to acknowledge this PTSD is too much for me to handle some days. I'm trying. I'm still Fighting but some days its hard to bury the pain, the anxiety & to "function".
I'm glad to be here. I hope that we all find a way to Heal our fractures.
Any of you feel crazy sometimes or been called crazy? Well, you're not - you've got PTSD just like Me!
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