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I wasn’t sure whether to put this here on in the Therapy section. I opted for here as I think this is the main underlying issue, even though it generally impacts most in therapy. Happy for mods to move it if it should be elsewhere.
So...I haven’t dissociated in about six months. I am not thinking this necessarily means it is gone for good - or maybe it is, who knows?!
I used to dissociate a lot in therapy whenever we so much as even dipped the very tiny tip of a toe into the deeper, historical work. The episodes would be pretty brutal and would floor me for a week.
Now it isn’t happening. I am much more present. This is obviously good therapeutic progress. And it feels absolutely horrendous!
How do you tolerate feeling all the feelings? It just feels so unbearable and I don’t know what to do with them. I know it is A Good Thing that I’m not dissociating at the moment and it must mean that I don’t “need” to. But it doesn’t feel good and I feel so lost.
Does anyone have any advice? Or is it just (!) a case of keep going to sessions and sitting with the unbearability and my tolerance will gradually increase?
Any thoughts or tips welcome. I am really struggling with this but also wonder if I am just being impatient and looking for answers when the reality is that I just have to buckle in and ride it out for however long that takes.
So...I haven’t dissociated in about six months. I am not thinking this necessarily means it is gone for good - or maybe it is, who knows?!
I used to dissociate a lot in therapy whenever we so much as even dipped the very tiny tip of a toe into the deeper, historical work. The episodes would be pretty brutal and would floor me for a week.
Now it isn’t happening. I am much more present. This is obviously good therapeutic progress. And it feels absolutely horrendous!
How do you tolerate feeling all the feelings? It just feels so unbearable and I don’t know what to do with them. I know it is A Good Thing that I’m not dissociating at the moment and it must mean that I don’t “need” to. But it doesn’t feel good and I feel so lost.
Does anyone have any advice? Or is it just (!) a case of keep going to sessions and sitting with the unbearability and my tolerance will gradually increase?
Any thoughts or tips welcome. I am really struggling with this but also wonder if I am just being impatient and looking for answers when the reality is that I just have to buckle in and ride it out for however long that takes.