I am on another forum called Narcissistic Abuse Recovery or NARP. It is a program by someone in Australia. It works for helping with trauma. I know they are going to find out about me. There going to see my trauma is over the top severe. I let it slip about how my brother died when I was 13. I couldn't sleep, all I wanted to do was go back in and delete all my posts. I tried to hint at it before but they didn't get it. People don't want to believe it. Their trauma is still horrific. What happened to them should not happen to anyone. But, when they were 17, did people eyes mirror death? Did they have a cloud that followed them around? Did they run 4 miles a day because if they fell into despair the cloud with catch them and kill them? (I was able to get rid of the cloud in my 26yr of sobriety). They are catching on. I got reply that had pity in it. It is an outlier though.