Sideways
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I am not a social person. I spend a lot of time trying to negotiate living with agoraphobia (bit of a contradiction) and depressive symptoms in particular.
Somehow, I’ve managed to end up in a relationship with a guy who seems friendly, trustworthy, keen on doing right by me. When we get together, I genuinely have a good time. He really likes me (at least, he’s said several times “I really like you” and his behaviour is consistent with that).
Unfortunately, 3 months in, and I’m still having panic attacks each time we’re due to meet up. When we’re not together, I spend a lot of time stressing about having to see him again, and not much time looking forward to seeing him again.
I’d kind of written off the possibility of being in an intimate relationship (like, ever). But I decided I’d try with him, because he’s a pretty special guy.
That said, I’m exhausted. I’m swinging back into depression, I’ve got a major hypersomnolence issue developing, and my agoraphobia is getting worse since being in the relationship.
So, how do you know if a relationship is worth pursuing? He describes “looking forward to seeing me”, but I seem to spend all my time just dreading it. Even though it’s great on those occasions when we do catch up, the stress of it all doesn’t seem to be easing off. If anything, I think it might be getting worse...
Somehow, I’ve managed to end up in a relationship with a guy who seems friendly, trustworthy, keen on doing right by me. When we get together, I genuinely have a good time. He really likes me (at least, he’s said several times “I really like you” and his behaviour is consistent with that).
Unfortunately, 3 months in, and I’m still having panic attacks each time we’re due to meet up. When we’re not together, I spend a lot of time stressing about having to see him again, and not much time looking forward to seeing him again.
I’d kind of written off the possibility of being in an intimate relationship (like, ever). But I decided I’d try with him, because he’s a pretty special guy.
That said, I’m exhausted. I’m swinging back into depression, I’ve got a major hypersomnolence issue developing, and my agoraphobia is getting worse since being in the relationship.
So, how do you know if a relationship is worth pursuing? He describes “looking forward to seeing me”, but I seem to spend all my time just dreading it. Even though it’s great on those occasions when we do catch up, the stress of it all doesn’t seem to be easing off. If anything, I think it might be getting worse...