I am struggling again and I am trying to fight off the freeze/fawn dynamic but all I want to do is to go to sleep but I am not actually tired I am emotionally tired if you know what I mean.
That rings so true for me. Sometimes sleep is what I need, but sometimes what I really need is a rest from the emotional overload. Then, sleeping is a slippery slope to an altered state - dissociation.all I want to do is to go to sleep but I am not actually tired I am emotionally tired if you know what I mean
I realise, reading this thread, that sometimes I try to fight it so hard that I wear myself out.Try not to fight it, cos in my experience that makes it last longer and feel harder.
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I read this and then didn't actually do it for myself.What has worked for me is firstly recognising that being seen is a trigger and then being very reassuring to that part of me (sometimes literally reassuring myself like I would a small child - it'll be ok, I know it's scary but you're really good at this, just a while longer, type messages). I'll also have a treat planned for after the "visible" thing, a nice coffee, cake, good book, movie whatever feels like a treat or feels nurturing.
I need to do this on a minute by minute basis at this time.I know it's horrible but the freeze/fawn thing is just trying to keep you safe, so you need to be kind to yourself and reassure yourself that you are in fact safe. Try not to fight it, cos in my experience that makes it last longer and feel harder.