InfiniteTangerine
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I spent a few weeks writing a trauma narrative in therapy.
Typically I would write the first half of the session, then he would read what I had written and discuss for the middle of the session, then we'd return to baseline for another 10 minutes or so. And that's how that would go for the most part. Last week I finished writing it. Then yesterday my therapist and I read the narrative all the way through together.
It was the first I'd heard it out loud, which was a good deal different than having only written it down, and I felt very overactivated by hearing it. At the end of the session he asked for my thoughts on having finished processing the trauma. I was a bit surprised because I wouldn't have thought I was finished processing it with the way I felt, if anything the trauma felt very unprocessed when we read it. I felt awful all day yesterday, didn't sleep last night, then again awful all day today. Nothing is getting me back on track.
Am I doing something wrong? Does this sound like I'm finished processing it? Should I be asking him to go through it more until I feel less reactive? Part of me thinks that might help, while the other part never wants to hear or think of that narrative again.
Typically I would write the first half of the session, then he would read what I had written and discuss for the middle of the session, then we'd return to baseline for another 10 minutes or so. And that's how that would go for the most part. Last week I finished writing it. Then yesterday my therapist and I read the narrative all the way through together.
It was the first I'd heard it out loud, which was a good deal different than having only written it down, and I felt very overactivated by hearing it. At the end of the session he asked for my thoughts on having finished processing the trauma. I was a bit surprised because I wouldn't have thought I was finished processing it with the way I felt, if anything the trauma felt very unprocessed when we read it. I felt awful all day yesterday, didn't sleep last night, then again awful all day today. Nothing is getting me back on track.
Am I doing something wrong? Does this sound like I'm finished processing it? Should I be asking him to go through it more until I feel less reactive? Part of me thinks that might help, while the other part never wants to hear or think of that narrative again.