metaphase twig
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I generally cope with everything fairly well...as best I can. Sometimes though the anger is overwhelming. It's like, I get road rage, grocery store rage, everything rage. I don't know how to cope with this part of ptsd.
I've learned how to relax and all that stuff, but my coping skills have their limits...like the woman in the bmw truck behind me honking because I didn't pull out into traffic to suit her...so I completely flipped, took my seatbelt off and got out of the car and was going to go back and beat her ass...so then she decides, "uh, oh...I'll pretend I didn't just honk at that girl cuz she looks like she's going to kill me..." And then I see she's got a baby in the car...I can't believe I was so mad I was gonna bitch slap this woman to hell and back and she has a kid in the car...what kinda monster am I?! I obviously didn't do it, but the thought that I was so mad and there was a poor child in the car, I felt terrible.
I don't know what more to do. I cope and cope so long until the stresses get too much and I snap. I'm on Xanax which helps, but hello, I'm only human...there's only so much crap I can take before I completely flip out!
Anybody have any suggestions what to do with this rage I feel???
I've learned how to relax and all that stuff, but my coping skills have their limits...like the woman in the bmw truck behind me honking because I didn't pull out into traffic to suit her...so I completely flipped, took my seatbelt off and got out of the car and was going to go back and beat her ass...so then she decides, "uh, oh...I'll pretend I didn't just honk at that girl cuz she looks like she's going to kill me..." And then I see she's got a baby in the car...I can't believe I was so mad I was gonna bitch slap this woman to hell and back and she has a kid in the car...what kinda monster am I?! I obviously didn't do it, but the thought that I was so mad and there was a poor child in the car, I felt terrible.
I don't know what more to do. I cope and cope so long until the stresses get too much and I snap. I'm on Xanax which helps, but hello, I'm only human...there's only so much crap I can take before I completely flip out!
Anybody have any suggestions what to do with this rage I feel???