i have switched meds for depression, started seeing a new psychiatrist who swears they can help. *cracks knuckles* okay lady bring it. She’s nice, she switched my meds, this will be try number 20 something of med combos. I was on Cymbalta for awhile for anxiety, depression and pain and while I was still depressed, I was depressed and somewhat numb. Well I’m off Cymbalta now and now all of a sudden I have feelings again that I don’t know what to do with. I feel I can cry at a moments notice, my anxiety feels like someone is punching my chest. I see her again this week. What I wasn’t prepared for was the suicidal thoughts to come crashing back in like a wrecking ball. I had like a 2 week break and I thought cool things are working and they’re back. And they’re so easy to listen to. I emailed my therapist but it’s like old hat to her now. I’m just frustrated. I feel I will always be depressed (have been since I was 12) and suicidal and then it’s been a shit-tastic year so I just want to be done. Like I tried, I’m just so tired of this crap.