As the title suggest ... I really am trying ... I’m doing everything you could consider helpful in healing, but my internal world just wins every single time.
I’ve had therapy for a while. With the same lady, who was honestly the only therapist I stuck with because I didn’t develop a relationship with none of the others. But now that is coming to an end due to unforeseen circumstances on their end. Which I accept. I’m ok with that and understanding. It’s just the damn feelings of abandonment that follow. I’ve tried contacting a few others but all have waiting lists etc, I’ve put myself on them, but what on earth do I do in the mean time?
The feeling of needing someone and it not being there and knowing it won’t be. This absolutely crushes me and sends me into isolation, survival mode. Can anyone relate to this or am I just alone in this? Definitely dealing with abandonment issues right now.
I feel like I’ve been dropped in the ocean. And I can’t swim against the tide.
I’ve had therapy for a while. With the same lady, who was honestly the only therapist I stuck with because I didn’t develop a relationship with none of the others. But now that is coming to an end due to unforeseen circumstances on their end. Which I accept. I’m ok with that and understanding. It’s just the damn feelings of abandonment that follow. I’ve tried contacting a few others but all have waiting lists etc, I’ve put myself on them, but what on earth do I do in the mean time?
The feeling of needing someone and it not being there and knowing it won’t be. This absolutely crushes me and sends me into isolation, survival mode. Can anyone relate to this or am I just alone in this? Definitely dealing with abandonment issues right now.
I feel like I’ve been dropped in the ocean. And I can’t swim against the tide.