Let me give you a small summary. Last week I did 4 hours of (youtube)EMDR , where I did not follow the stander protocol but emptied my mind and just looked at the green ball . Was under a lot of stress due to the coronavirus and was willing to try anything to fiend relief. Instead of finding relief, I made my situation MUCH worse. My attempt at self-therapy released a tsunami of emotion, ever since then my life has become hell Not only is there no end in sight of these emotions but every day these ''waves'' of emotions seem to get worse. Atm I can cope with what is coming my way but I am barely holding on. Try to do the right thing, lots of walks, self-care, lot of inner dialogues with my '' inner children'' , keep reminding myself that emotions can't kill me but its getting harder my the day Despite my attempts to keep myself calm , I am freaking out inside
Been diagnosed with Avoidant personality disorder and CPTSD. Before you mark me as ''doomed'' I did make a lot of progress in the past two years. Healed 4 traumas completely on my own. My mind and body are reconnected again and my relationship with my broken parts has improved much since then. Not posting this to boast but I am not the same person I was 2 or three years ago and in this state, I can tolerate more negative feelings
Can you give me some guidelines on how to survive this mess I have created for myself? Should I hospitalize myself? Based on my description, how long could this last?
Thank you for reading and I look forward to your replays
English is my third leagues my apologies for the spelling errors
Been diagnosed with Avoidant personality disorder and CPTSD. Before you mark me as ''doomed'' I did make a lot of progress in the past two years. Healed 4 traumas completely on my own. My mind and body are reconnected again and my relationship with my broken parts has improved much since then. Not posting this to boast but I am not the same person I was 2 or three years ago and in this state, I can tolerate more negative feelings
Can you give me some guidelines on how to survive this mess I have created for myself? Should I hospitalize myself? Based on my description, how long could this last?
Thank you for reading and I look forward to your replays
English is my third leagues my apologies for the spelling errors