I am not sure but I am starting to think I may have pstd. My life is mostly ok, I have friends, home, a loving family and so on. But I feel like I am constantly in hell mentally speaking. I am on my guard and my mind is looking for signs of danger even if I am just sitting in my couch.I think this is due to the fact I was abused by an older boy when I was a pre-schooler. I continued living but I was bullied in my school later on so it took a long time for me to get more self-confidence and friends.
When I was in my late teens I had mental breakdown and I become suicidal. After an unsuccessful suicide attempt I got the help I needed and although I still have a lot of anxiety, I haven't been suicidal anymore.
I still struggle with self-confidence at times and tend to blame myself for a lot of things that I objectively recognize aren't my fault.
My current struggle is related to war in another country. The flood of war material has caused me a lot more trauma and as I am sometimes afraid that the war might come here although it seems somewhat unlikely at the moment. The country I live in has a pretty strong army for its size and I think we will get international help if needed. I have has an issue with doomscroling which I am trying to let go with the help of a therapist.
I am looking for ways to deal with my trauma and with the help of others to move on with my life.
When I was in my late teens I had mental breakdown and I become suicidal. After an unsuccessful suicide attempt I got the help I needed and although I still have a lot of anxiety, I haven't been suicidal anymore.
I still struggle with self-confidence at times and tend to blame myself for a lot of things that I objectively recognize aren't my fault.
My current struggle is related to war in another country. The flood of war material has caused me a lot more trauma and as I am sometimes afraid that the war might come here although it seems somewhat unlikely at the moment. The country I live in has a pretty strong army for its size and I think we will get international help if needed. I have has an issue with doomscroling which I am trying to let go with the help of a therapist.
I am looking for ways to deal with my trauma and with the help of others to move on with my life.