Mach123
MyPTSD Pro
Hi I am reading and posting here and this is a giant accomplishment for me because now I am getting the insight and experience of others. It has been about two years (probably longer) of trying to look at stuff online. I just couldn't do it. Everything was such a big secret and when people were talking about it, when I was reading it I guess I just would get triggered all over the place and I'd be like "I hate this they are all so schmaltzy sending each other hugs and stuff." lol! Then God forbid if I posted anything and someone replied I'd be like off the wall. Then I'd go away and not look at it for a couple months. I always got the emails though. I don't know when I first started doing that.
Then a couple weeks ago I read a post and I was like "Oh man that's me." It was exactly the same kind of thing. I knew the feelings so well and I started posting you know.
So what this is telling me I think is I'm in a different place now. I guess so, because I have three devices on and all of them are logged onto this board and I am walking back and forth reading them. I think I've done this before and it blew up in my face but right now I'm thinking I was wrong it didn't blow up, I did. Maybe this time I won't.
Thanks everyone
Then a couple weeks ago I read a post and I was like "Oh man that's me." It was exactly the same kind of thing. I knew the feelings so well and I started posting you know.
So what this is telling me I think is I'm in a different place now. I guess so, because I have three devices on and all of them are logged onto this board and I am walking back and forth reading them. I think I've done this before and it blew up in my face but right now I'm thinking I was wrong it didn't blow up, I did. Maybe this time I won't.
Thanks everyone