So I smoked some weed and I don’t know what happened but a wave of depression and paranoia hit me like a truck and I still feel the same way it’s been nearly two years. I just don’t feel normal, my life has changed so much and I want to go back. I’m not diagnosed but I assume it is PTSD. I don’t dream about the event. I think about it a lot, but what keeps me this way is how it makes me feel and how I can’t do the things I used to enjoy rather than the event itself. I avoid any activity, other than the ones I have to do, that will possibly be ruined by the state I am in. Say if I play a game, every time after I play it again I will be reminded that I am traumatised and depressed, and this happens with everything now. It’s such a big complex structure now, I just want to be happy again and not be conscious of everything I do.